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20 November 2011 @ 10:56 am
So I'm single again.

After 6 1/2 years, this is kind of a big, scary thing. It was my decision, my choice, but damn was it hard. I won't get into the whys and the wherefores; aside from anything else, it's not very interesting.

One thing it has shown me is how amazing my friends are. Just the amount of comfort and help and being there has been awesomely awesome.

It'll be weird facing the world on my own. For years, I've been one half of a pair, and that's always been kind of hard for me, because I fiercely value my independence. There's a part of me that is thrilling to go out and meet people and make mistakes, that wants what's raw and exciting and frightening and savage. There's another part that wants to cower in the corner, because what if they don't like me and what if I'm wrong, all those horrid little thoughts that come crawling in at 3am.

So yes. That's my big life-changing thing for today.
Rebecca Elizabethstar_faerie on November 20th, 2011 10:00 pm (UTC)
Lydia: Hyper grinninglydia on November 23rd, 2011 10:30 pm (UTC)
I have so many things I want to say after reading that... like... I'm so sorry... and... how liberating and scary and... it's a time to find yourself... your independence again... and grieve and learn...

Breaking up is so complex.

And where are the words? Yay for friends!

No cowering, okay?

All the best for what's raw and exciting and frightening and savage! :D
Love me, this random internet person. xxx
Give me space so I can breatheemberfire on December 19th, 2011 12:10 am (UTC)
*hugs* Wishing you the best of luck navigating the world as yourself.